Just call me Fatty

Wow, the past week has been a roller coaster ride! I have been up and down the food roller coaster and ended the week 4 pounds heavier. I have no idea what happened, other than the endless delicious foods I over indulged in all week long. The ice cream I ate almost every night while catching up on shows. I know that I am suppose to eat small meals, including snacks all day long, however, these snacks and tiny meals probably shouldn’t consist of sugar, fat, salt, carbs, or various libations.

It has been a fun week, filled with games and productive work around the house and a solid feeling of accomplishment for a job well done. But, I must have decided sometime along the way that I should reward my hard work with treats and celebratory drink. It felt validated, even though I immediately recognized the discomfort and bloating I felt after each physical transaction. Yet it didn’t stop me.

On the upside, I did clean the entire garage, organize, and purge a lot of junk that has been sitting in the garage for years. Made quite a few donations and made a few trips to the dump as well. Even with those small successes, I still feel defeated and upset at my lack of effort and responsibility to myself. It’s time to get my act together…again.

Weekend Woes

This weekend has been particularly difficult to navigate through the diet maze. I fell off the wagon and hit the ground hard! It was a rainy and cold weekend, so there was plenty of laziness around the house, snacks galore, and over indulgence. Games were being played and movies were watched, meaning popcorn and other finger foods were over flowing. I was able to keep up on my water intake and tea intake and fortunately didn’t gain any weight. However, I saw how easy it is to fall away from my goals and how easy it was to justify my bad decisions this weekend. It was way too easy.

I have to figure out a new way to approach this thing. I think maybe I went into it too fast and I need to slowly inch back into the new routine, rather than shocking my system. And now, I have to leave for Los Angeles for the next day or two. This is going to be a difficult beginning to the week.

Cheat day…

Yesterday was a complete wash. For some reason, I didn’t feel like doing a thing. I think it was the typical mid-week slump during the first week of starting a new diet or routine, when the body totally rejects any of your good intentions and forcefully makes you relax all day and rest. At least that is what I am telling myself.

I didn’t eat horribly, but it wasn’t the best either. I did enjoy the sushi dinner and bit of ice cream I enjoyed for dessert. I guess I can officially call it my cheat day for the week. I thought that maybe I wouldn’t need to have a cheat day, because I was stronger than that, but who am I kidding. I’ll be lucky if I don’t have two cheat days during the first few weeks.

This is going to be a tough first few weeks. I suspect it will eventually get easier as time goes by, but I am not under any impression that I won’t have to work at this. I need to stay focused and determined. It WILL get easier…right?

The early bird gets the worm?…continued

Does the early bird really get the worm? I suppose so, but there are only so many worms to be had. This morning, I don’t see any worms. The funny thing is, when watching television this early in the morning, the only choices of shows to watch is either news or paid programing. At this time in the morning, all the paid programing seems to be of skinny, good looking people working out and having a lot of fun doing it. They all seem to be so happy and energized, jumping around, waving their arms, shouting, and sweating. Makes me sick. Not appreciating the overly happy fit people on TV today. However, I am looking forward to my robust flax seed oatmeal. Is this really what it has come to?

The early bird gets the worm?

I’m up way too early. It’s 5:30 am and I didn’t want to get up until 6am or maybe even a little later, but my alarm clock seems to enjoy playing dirty tricks on me and messing with my sleep. I had planned to get up and work out and stretch. I now feel like crawling back into bed and giving up on my high and lofty goals for this morning. It’s cold and it’s raining. Not sure what to do.

Raw Taco

I just had a great raw taco. I have always wanted to try this way of eating one of my favorite foods, but never got around to it. Probably because I love meat so much. However, I am now trying to incorporate raw foods into my diet and daily routines because the evidence speaks for itself regarding the health benefits of eating raw. The overall experience was fairly easy and extremely messy! But, a little taco juice never hurt anyone.

I regret not taking a picture before I ate the tacos, but I obviously couldn’t wait. Here it is:

whole head of butter lettuce peeled into individual leafs – washed and dried with a paper towel

garbanzo, kidney, and black beans rinsed in cold water and drained into a large bowl

1 can of corn, olives, and chopped tomatoes (I use the organic kind flavored with oregano, garlic, and basil) – add all to the bowl

add extra garlic, fresh ground pepper, celtic sea salt, and extra virgin olive oil into the bowl and mix – add additional spices you might like or need more of (all to your specific taste)

scoop bean salad into lettuce leaf and top with a few wedges of fresh avocado

sprinkle a little extra sea salt onto and squeeze a little fresh lemon juice to taste and enjoy!

Make sure you have plenty of napkins, or a towel, or better yet, just eat them in the shower so you can immediately clean yourself after you eat.

Ground Flaxseed Meal

Just tried ground flaxseed meal in my oatmeal this morning and was very happy with the results. I was not sure what to expect, but found the flavor and texture to be good and easier than I thought to enjoy. The flaxseed actually over powers the flavors of other stuff put in the oatmeal, like honey and cinnamon, but it isn’t bad. It’s very robust and nutty in flavor and texture and quite smooth.
I am eating Bob’s Red Mill brand. Highly recommended!

Early Morning

I got up way too early this morning because I couldn’t sleep. Thinking about all kinds of stuff; work, exercise, food, chores, food… It’s been three days since I began this weight loss journey and it feels like I have been doing it forever. I can already tell that it will be a challenge for me to continue to come up with creative food options to keep myself interested and off of the junk food circuit. I have made a personal commitment to myself to not eat fast food, no matter how hungry I may be or how pressed for time I may be. I cannot imagine putting those chemicals into my body anymore. It may taste good at the moment, but it is slowly killing you from the inside out.
I found The Rack in the garage yesterday and saw a commercial for it last night. I am very excited to start using it again. It has been years and I thought that I would never use it again, but seeing that commercial last night gave me all kinds of new ideas of how to use it for my routine. Should be good. I’ll report on the success or failure.
Also looking for new raw food recipes, especially raw soups. Got the blender and food processor out yesterday and I am anxious to use it. I plan on blending everything and drinking all of my meals!!
I hope today turns out to be productive, which I think it will. Even though it is early, I feel energized and ready to go for the day. Lots to do.

The Next Day

Huh, this is going to be much harder than I thought. I was doing good with my eating habits all day yesterday until dinner came. I had family over and they brought pizza with them. I ended up eating the pizza even though I had a meal already planned with lots of veggies and chicken, etc. I actually ate the pizza as if it would be the last pizza I would ever have or like someone was going to take it away from me. A minor setback, but I managed to not eat anything after dinner and just drink water.

Today is a bit better. I was more hungry first thing this morning. Off to a good start today.

 

Day One

This is day one of my 15 week journey to lose 30 pounds of flesh. I am currently 210 pounds and have high blood pressure, high cholesterol, low vitamin D, and have lost all of my energy. I am tired of feeling like this, so I am making a change and finally sticking to it. I have tried this in the past and failed numerous times. Why is this time different? I won’t say that it will be any different, but I will say that I am more determined this time. Can’t say quite why, but it feels different this time.

I am hoping by starting this blog and joining this community, I can also find some much needed support and encouragement that I think I had been lacking the other times I attempted this challenge. I am also looking for tips and tricks and delicious healthy recipes I can try while on my journey. One of my biggest challenges have always been getting bored with meal options, so I hope to remedy that this time around.

Maybe someone else will feel motivated to join me on this 15 week journey as well and I welcome anyone who would like to do so. The more the merrier!